The
creak of gates, a day playing itself out
in brilliant billows of bright orange on blue
By Ma. Eugenia Guerra
It's the end of the
day at the end of the week in winter, a quiet day
on the soft, dun-colored earth of this place.
I've paced myself today and balanced the expenditure
of energy for chores with leaving enough daylight
for a walk along a slope that has always looked promising
for an arrowhead hunt. I've only ever been there on
the business of moving cattle through a gate and hadn't
taken the time to enjoy that part of the pasture.
In the random thoughts I had as I began the walk,
I heard the inner dialogue say, "And I found
it in the hoof print of a cow." Less that 15
minutes later I lifted a beautiful gray point out
of the dry relief of a hoof print that framed it,
a heavy print made when it was last muddy.
Chico the heeler and I are accompanied, surrounded,
by the herd that lives for the moment in that pasture.
The smell of their luxuriant hides and their chlorophyll-tinged
breath permeate the thick, cool air of the afternoon.
I notice, despite the ever-pressing subtext of my
thoughts filled with ideas for how to keep my newspaper
business afloat, a break in that contemplation. On
this afternoon my thoughts are clear and present,
and have nothing to do with that grinding perplexity
or any of the other mouse mazes I've a penchant for
choosing as the substance of my life.
I feel the arrowhead in my pocket, my fingertips registering
the intricacy of its sharp, fluted edge. I can't see
the truck anymore, but Chico knows where it is, and
when I tell him to get in the back, I simply follow
him out of the brush.
I love this old dog, witness to every folly and every
foible for the last seven years of my life. The things
Chico knows. I once thought I heard him say to me,
"Get a grip, whiner!"
The afternoon has left us and the day begins to set
in earnest as we make the rounds through a couple
of pastures, raising a little red dust in the low,
sandy places. What is it about the creak of a gate
on the utter quiet of the ranchlands at sunset? How
can something that simple register with such resonance?
In a pasture in which I think we are not running any
cattle, I come across the errant bovine named North
by Northwest, so named for the curious design of the
curvature of her horns. Up to her hips in grass, she
shows little interest in our movement along the senderos.
I check the tanks and the float valves in water troughs
on the way to the next gate.
In the near-darkness I notice that my radio has been
on, and I raise the volume to the folk music channel
on satellite radio and hear Tom Paxton talking about
Pete Seeger.
Paxton sings:
And now I know
You can't wade in the same river twice.
The current flows around you,
Then it's gone.
Leaves you no choice
But moving on.
That river's gone.
And so I do move on,
and in more ways than one. I check the fences, especially
the boundary fences, and then take a turn west into
the end of the day playing itself out in brilliant
tinged billows of clouds and streaks of bright orange
on blue. And as if it wasn't enough to behold that
dappled sunset spectacle of fire and light, I see
it mirrored on the smooth surface of the pond near
my house, and standing near it, I am myself filled
with light and color.